Fam... that's clinical depression.
That’s a very insightful observation as I’ve battled depression since I was 13 (which is 46 years for those following along at home). I’ve become so adept at managing it, especially over the last 15 years, that I sometimes don’t recognize it for what it is.
I did stop taking meds back in March (under medical supervision) to make another attempt at getting my sleep apnea under control. I was successful this time, but between finally getting a good night’s sleep, losing 30 pounds, and simply aging, my body chemistry seems to have changed. I’m just now finding the right balance of meds which thankfully seems to be down to an average dose of Lexipro. I also cut out caffeine the last couple of weeks. I just don’t need stimulants any more like I did when I wasn’t sleeping well.
There are other factors at work here as well. I will always remember 2025 as the year when “someday” became a series of very specific time frames. “Someday we’ll be grandparents.” “Someday we’ll retire.” Someday we’ll downsize and move closer the kids.” These are all blessings and milestones that you hope to reach heading into your 60s, but at the same time, I’ve always been very “young” for my age. I’m having a difficult time reconciling the two.
So going back to my original example of not being motivated to ship my Pile of Loot, I think TheSameIdiot is right. I have been depressed a good part of the year, and I’m just now realizing that.
I think collecting has also become a much more finite proposition for me with all of these significant life changes on the horizon. For over 25 years, my only criteria for purchasing figures was “Do I want it?” and “Can I afford it?”. Now it’s more like “Is this really what I should be doing right now?” That question will take the fun out of just about anything.
There were so many other great points made on the thread as well. We have an amazing community of people here. We really do.