But wait, there's more! Everything they do is to inflict the most harm imaginable.
Ugh. Am I surprised? Not in the least bit. Am I saddened? Furious? At a loss for words? Completely.
I don't think people realize how precious a resource that is for people, especially those struggling with their sexuality in less accepting parts of the country. There's already the shame of being gay itself, but the shame of feeling suicidal is a whole other topic that many keep close to their chest, whatever their reason may be. I think if we got down to the nitty gritty, a lot of folks would be surprised at how many people- including people they know well- have taken advantage of a suicide hotline at least once in their lives.
Are they cure-alls? Absolutely not. I've had to use one once or twice, and they can be a real toss-up. Either you get someone who's awesome and willing to listen, or, like in my case, they kinda just tell you to call your therapist instead. I've had a couple friends say something similar, but I've had even more friends say the opposite- that they felt so alone, and so scared to push away people that they knew, that talking to a stranger was the only thing that gave them hope and let them feel like they could get out what they needed to say without judgement, or that they felt so alone that just knowing
someone, even a stranger, was willing to listen, convinced them to keep going. Some of them had never heard the words "you matter", or "Who you are is okay", or what have you, before. If they hadn't had that phone call, they'd more than likely be dead right now.
To remove such services
will lead to more deaths- of folks both young and old, that's all there is to it. To announce something like this during Pride Month (which will continue to exist, whether they want it or not), just feels like salt in the wound. Yet again, no one subtly (and not-so-subtly) advocates for the death of anyone different than the "pro-life" crowd. Please know, though, I know it's not
everyone. Not all pro-lifers are hateful pieces of garbage, but most, if not all hateful pieces of garbage also turn out to be pro-lifers.
That's why I lost my cool online the other day during the No Kings Rally. These people are more and more advocating for the outright death of people like me and my loved ones, and then they have the gall to tell me I'm not being respectful to them when I make a little quip about their intelligence? (Every single one of them proved me right, by the way, since their grammar was
atrocious in each of their posts). God, it just breaks my heart. I hope whatever blood is spilled because of this stains their hands for the rest of their miserable little lives.
I'm gonna keep doing my best to live a life of love and acceptance. To hell with it if people think I'm weird- I don't ever want to have a day where I look back and regret not telling a friend or a loved one, or even that lovely cashier I make small-talk with, how I truly appreciate them. My rainbow is too fuckin' bright to be dulled by the nebulous darkness of these a-hole's hearts, and their hate sure as shit ain't gonna dictate the worth of my love.